Tuesday, May 8, 2012

9 years ago

"Lately, I've been feeling like I'm sinking. I don't know if it is just part of the grief process or what. But, it sucks.
I'll be doing something completely simple, and then I will get this sinking feeling in my chest. And, it feels like my whole body is just overcome with sadness. To the point where I am afraid to breathe. Because really...This cannot be my life."  

Erika posted that on her blog shortly after she lost her dad.
My heart sank. 
I remember that feeling.
I hate that feeling.
Sometimes I still get it.

Through the roller coaster posts of her losing her dad, I cried for her.
I cried for baby El.
Do I know them?
Nope. I read her blog. 
I comment even less.
No matter how much I wanted to reach out to her, I couldnt.
But now I wish I had.

9 years ago today, I lost the greatest man in my life.
My Dad.


I don't have any pictures of him on my computer right now,
and this is not all I want to say.
But for today, this is enough.
Miss you Dad!



Amanda said...

I can't even imagine losing my dad. He's still my hero. And it brings me to tears just thinking of it. I'm so sorry you've lost yours....

Erika said...

I'm sorry you have had to go nine years without your dad. I'm even more sorry that you still have moments of "sinking"...It's not fair.

Mandy said...

I am so sorry for your loss. This week is the anniversary of a big loss for myself as well. It's always a hard time of the year. I like thinking I have an angel watching over me though, and I'm sure you do as well.