I'm Blank Because...

Found this on Rags To Stitches and HAD to repost after seeing it multiple times!

I'm weird because...
I often break out in song.
I refuse to pay full price on anything, I am actually rather cheap!
At the end of most books, I am legitimately sad, and feel like I lost someone close.
When I like a song, I will have it on repeat until I can no longer stand it.
I may not be a Christian, but I love my Jesus music <3
Even though I will soon have a nook, I still buy books.
I have an OBSESSION with babies and children. Need a babysitter? :)

I'm a bad friend because...
I'm horrible at calling and texting back.
I can't do small talk.
I write crappy thank you cards (if i even get around to it!).
Since I don't drive, I rarely show up to events.

I'm a good friend because...
I would give up my life for you.
I will shower you with gifts.
I'm honest.
You can always depend on me.
If you have a kid(or 2 or 3) you will always have me for help!
I will be there in the blink of an eye if you need me.

I'm sad because...
My Grandpa is getting a pacemaker put in.
I'm going to miss a couple of my professors.
Babies don't deserve to die I miss my job in CT.
Snow is coming.

I'm happy because...
I have an amazing family, and boyfriend!
I am surrounded by amazing friends who love me.
My Annual Cookie Bake is coming up.
The semester is over.
My almost 80yr old Grandpa.

I'm excited for...
Cookie Bake.
Time off.
Shopping.
Celebrations of Christmas(first one tomorrow!)
Finals almost being over.
Surprise Date Night with the boy; he will never read this!

Oh Happy Day, Happy Day, You washed my sin away

I love life's little ironic moments.

I was sitting in Chapel this morning as I typically do 3 times a week.
They sang a song called Happy Day...which is one of those songs no matter if you love it, hate it, or have never heard it, it WILL be stuck in your head.

Then I go to class, open my computer and start looking at all of my blogs.
-Yes instead of paying attention in class.

I see this :

So PLEASE go here. I will be doing this, although mine will probably be a week or two late, since I kind of have blog-updating FAIL.

But seriously. I'm in love with this project. I can't wait. So go share some smiles today, I know I will :)

xoxo-Meghan

Your glory goes beyond all fame

"When I see you, the world. It stops and all that exists for me, is you and my eyes staring at you. There's nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The world just stops and it's a beautiful place and there's only you. Just you. And my eyes staring at you. When you're gone, the world starts again and I don't like it as much. I can live in it, but I don't like it. I just walk around in it, and wait to see you again and wait for it to stop again. I love it when it stops. It's the best thing I've ever known or ever felt, the best thing, and that, is why I stare at you."
-A Million Little Pieces

Your light will shine when all else fades

I know my blogs are few and far between, but I'm working on it!

Unlike my last post, this one is a drastic change! Everything seems to be going so well in my life right now, I am cautiously waiting for the next thing to go wrong. And with things this perfect, it's gotta be something big...right? :/

I.Love.College. I truly do. So yeah, maybe I am that dorky kid who sits in the back of class taking notes all day. And I just might be the girl who has ZERO friends. And I may hate my philosophy class with everything in me. BUT, I love college :)

I love my education classes. I love that tomorrow I start my field placement. aka, I start going into a school with a teacher, helping, doing lessons, etc. I love knowing I am going to start making a difference in children's lives already! This is so much more than I ever anticipated my freshman year. One neat thing is my niece is in my class tomorrow and possibly my half-sister. I'm not 100% how I feel about that second part. Actually, I guess I shouldn't dwell on it. I mean, she probably doesn't remember me after all these years anyways. But how awesome to see her and her growth right before me :) I will be sure to post ASAP!

Dustin came back from Connecticut...see the distance thing doesn't last long with us ;)

As many of you may know, I am going to a very strict Christian College. I, to this day, am not sure whether or not I believe in God. We are required to attend Chapel three times a week. I thought I was going to hatehatehate going to Chapel, but I genuinely enjoy it. (Although my boyfriend does not. When I like a song, it means everyone around me better be prepared to hate it in a day or so. I keep coming home with all these worship songs, and he is going crazy!! :P) So on that note, I shall go to bed and leave you with this amazing song to listen to and think about :)


xoxo
Meghan<3

College..best four years, or no?

WARNING: THIS POST MAY CONTAIN LOTS OF COMPLAINING!

So with that said, my college experience this far:horrible!
I know as an off-campus student I can't really judge my year yet since classes have yet to start. But I do. I'm that person :P

First big event on campus was for all freshman to go to a Clipper's game. Did I get the memo? Nope. No email, nothing in the mail. No posts online. But yet it was for everyone. So before classes even start I feel like an outcast.

I had decided this past week, I was going to shine this year. Good grades, tons of friends, go to all campus events even if I don't feel like it. I didn't wanna do anything to prevent myself from having a good college life. Now I'm just not sure anymore. I don't have friends. I'm too afraid to go to events alone. Most things are for 2 or 4 people. So of course roomies, where does that put me?

I think this is enough complaining and rambling. I promise not to have another post like this! It was just good to vent!

Slightly bummed,
Meghan

Secrets

Leave of Absence

I have been gone for MONTHS, literally.
For some reason, no matter how much I wanted to blog, I just didn't. I have missed it a lot :)

I'm having a hard time in life right now. And although I do not want a pity party on myself, I think blogging will help me deal with this.

My boyfriend and I moved from Connecticut to Ohio on June first. Last Wednesday he moved back. Alone. I would have done anything to go with him, but I refuse to put school off another year, nor does he want me to. I miss him terribly, it hasn't even been a week, but I am miserable without him by my side.

On top of all that, my godson (mentioned in several previous posts) died last week. I am staying with his mom right now, she is my "cousin" and we have always been very close. We're both taking this very hard, her obviously more so. He was overdue by a couple days and the cord wrapped around his neck. I do not want to answer questions about it. I am not sharing anymore details other than that. I will always love him, and miss him. But God has a crazy way of making things work out in the end. So I'm hoping he will in this case.

I miss everyone out there in blog land :P But I am going to head to bed and give that boyfriend of mine a call.

<3 Meghan

Is it just me?

So I re-did my blog. Big time. Style makeover for the move.
(more information about the move in my next post!)
Now I can't figure it out, I don't know how to make my cute little facebook/twitter icons, link to me. I don't know if it really looks good.

This is my blog makeover jitters. So just please deal with my little blog quirks until I get everything figured out.

New update coming asap!


With BIG news!


xoxo- Meghan

Maeve

Maeve has got to be the cutest little girl, and I don't understand why she is still waiting for her forever family.
I am sure she is going to be snatched up soon, and oh how I only wish it could be me!
She has down syndrome, and 6 fingers on her right hand, but other than that completely healthy, and beautiful!

Could your home be her forever home?

 I found Reece's Rainbow from a fellow blogger, Love. She was having Love for Anika parties where people donated money to her adoption fund. I would LOVE to do something like that for little Maeve and just might have to.

Until next time,

xoxo-Meghan

Birthday, Beach, Boyfriend :)

This is going to be a short post, and mainly pictures!

I turned 19 on 4/30. I was scheduled to work, but my work called and told me if I came in to receive my gift, then I could have the night off. So of course I did, and they got me balloons, cookies, cupcakes, and a bear :)
I love my coworkers!

Oh, and that's my adorable wittle Gabby. She wouldn't leave it alone for five seconds to get this picture!

Then I came home and we had a cook out and tooooo much food! Angel food cake and pudding, instead of the traditional birthday cake. (Very yummy, but unfortunately I forgot to take a picture).

Sunday we spent the day at the beach, and here's a few random pictures!

the boy&i :)

ready to go!

LOOK AT HIS FACE! oh geez hahaha

Me "That's amtrak! It has people on it!"

Patti "Uh...yeahh? What else do trains have?"

Me "Coal, Grain...that's what we have in Ohio!"

I found this stick, and decided the only logical choice, was to take this picture :)

1-Shells in my hoodie pocket=unflattering.

2-Random log? Photo op...duh.

3-The stick I'm holding? Yeah, it's in my suitcase now.

Does anyone know what this is?! They were everywhere, and I couldn't bring myself to touch it. I just had to know! :)

That's all for tonight, but soon I hope to be back with a superduper long update!

xoxo-Meghan

Growing & Changing

I realized today, that so many things in my life are changing. I am growing as a person, I am slowly becoming the person I have always dreamed of being and there is no better feeling than knowing that I am achieving this!

*I have been accepted to college, paid my deposit, scheduled ,my orientation, and soon I will have my financial aid sorted out. This is a big deal. I have taken a year off from college, unintentionally, and I am so ready to start. I am ready to start my life. No excuses, this is it.

*I found out a very close friend of the family is in the hospital and in a coma. No one knows why this happened, but thankfully she is stable. (Prayers Please!) She has been there for my mom since before I was born, and I am hoping that if it is her time to go, that it can wait until I am home to say my goodbyes. I know my mom is having a hard time with this, and I just hope everything works out.

*My godson is officially at 24 weeks gestation! Woohoo! Past the halfway point. His mommy has been in my life since I was very young, and although we aren't technically related, we say we are cousins. We're doing his nursery in Turtles&Frogs. I cannot wait to decorate it with his mommy! Her life is changing, she has someone new to care for, but she has always wanted this, this is her dream. And it's here. I love you Parker! <3

*My job is crazy, I learn so much. I love it so much. Yeah, I may have a screaming, smelly kid every now and then. It's the ones who sit there so perfectly, and when mom&dad she the pictures, their faces light up, that make it everything I could every want. When I do a sitting with a newborn, and they lay so peacefully and let me shoot away, I know I am doing what is best for me. I love taking pictures!

*Speaking of pictures, and my godson, I am doing Maternity pictures in June/July for them, I will have to get permission to post a couple pictures! And of course, I will be doing his pictures growing up. This little guy is already spoiled :)

*I'm going back to Ohio. In 34 days. I gave my boyfriend the choice to come with me, because that is why I moved here. To be with him. But he has to step up and get the money himself plus be able to pay my mom rent. It's going to be hard, but if he can do it, I will be so proud. Otherwise I suppose we are done. I miss Ohio, everything there, everyone there. And the new friends I have made back home since being gone.

*I feel like such a stronger person than I was 7 months ago when I left home. Wow. Seven months. Over a half a year. I still can't get over how long it has been. I miss my mom, and slowly I see parts of her growing in me. Oh god, when they told me I was going to be my mom when I grew up, I never really believed it! That's okay by me though, my mom is one amazing, and strong woman. If I become half the person she is, I will be happy <3

Now that I have successfully caught up with my blog, I am heading out of here. Eye doctor appointment soon, which means new glasses! Which means, I will post a picture :)

xoxo-Meghan


p.s. Check out Boyce Avenue! They are amazing!

Money Money!

Best thing about my job : Knowing that I am making kids smile, and knowing that parents now have a good picture of their kid. I love making my camera room a fun place, if I don't have fun, I know the kids aren't.

Nice bonus about my job : Money!

I have been able to help out here, buy my boyfriend and I an amazing date(more details later!), buy myself things I need, and want of course :P, and get a plane ticket home. With money to spare!

I've been having a great week, work has been good, talked to my mom and my friends a ton, and my boyfriend and I are great :D

So yesterday was Dustin & I's 1 year anniversary. I had to work, but he took me to work, and then he surprised me by coming back when I got off. We did some shopping (in which there was minimal complaining by him!!!) and I took him to Friendly's. We got an appetizer and a meal each. Boy were we stuffed! Then we need more shopping(god i love this boy!). I ended up buying my godson yet another onesie(he is not due until August), I got new work shoes, a purse(seriously, he's amazing), and some socks&undies! Woohoo!

We had an incident at work where a customer threw a fit they couldn't get what they wanted(trying to work the system) and it ended up ended pretty badly. Thankfully no one was hurt, but it did result in some crying children.

The new shoes (: A crappy picture, but hey, I had to take it as soon as I put them on.

I have to wear mostly black shoes for work and dress shoes are too uncomfortable, so these are perfect!

The new purse, from Aeropostale, 8.99! Reg. 39.50 :D

And finally, this is how I have been spending my days at work lately, I took this picture especially for my blog....and I know, it's kinda creepy!

And for anyone who like Aeropostale and has one near them, they are having AMAZING sales right now, I spent under $20 on a purse and 4 pairs of underwear. Everything is 50% off or more!

xoxo-

Meghan

p.s. How horrible is it that we didn't take a picture one our 1 year? Oops!

Father

fa·ther

Noun: A man in relation to his natural child or children.

...And that's all he is to me, a man in relation.

He was never there growing up, never there emotionally, physically, financially, never there when I needed him.

This post, I am going to write a letter to my Dad, and to my father. They are two different people. And for everybody who doesn't know my story, I will give you a very brief glimpse at how complicated my family really is.

My mom's a lesbian. I wasn't planned AT ALL.

My "father" didn't want me and chose not to be a part of my life. 

My Dad adopted me when I was 5. It was one of the best things to happen to me.

Unfortunately, he died when I was 11. One of the worst days of my life.

Dear Frank(father),

I despise you. I wouldn't say I hate you, because a part of me loves you. I love you for giving me life. I love you for allowing my Dad to adopt me. I love you for giving me the most amazing brother in the world. I hate you for being immature when he was born and allowing what happened to him, happen. I hate you for not wanting me when I was born, but now that I'm older I am happy. I love you for my two beautiful sisters, even if they don't know me anymore.

I love that because of everything you have put me through, I am the person I am today.

I wish that you would grow up and acknowledge my existence. I'm here ya know? I don't want you, you don't want me. Great. Perfect, but can't we be civil? Talk once a year, make sure we're alive...all the good stuff. But nope. You'd rather go years between talking. Fine. I officially give up on you. But I swear to you, I refuse to give up on my brother. I love him to much.

Sincerely, with a big 'ol Screw You,

Meghan

Dear Michael/Mike/Mikey(dad),

How could this happen? Why did you have to leave me? You are one of the most amazing men I have ever met. You have touched the lives of so many people. On May 8th, it will be eight years without you. Some days it take everything I have in me to even function without you, and some days, I barely remember you. That scares me to death. What if one day I wake up, and I can't remember you? Sometimes I can smell you, and for people who think it is linked to something specific, it isn't. I was 11 when you died. And I don't remember enough about you to be able to pin-point a smell. Sometimes I just know you're here. You give me so much strength Dad. You are my inspiration. I want to live, and live the most fulfilled life I can. But by my standards. Not societies. Just like you did. I miss you Dad, and I would do anything to bring you back. I'm sorry I can't visit your grave this year. I can't afford to fly home for the weekend. But know, that wherever I am, I am always thinking about you. Your picture is on my cork board alongside the ornament I got "from you" or Christmas. There is not a day I don't think about you.

I love you so much, Your daughter,

Meghan

Godson

Dear Parker Dean,
I cannot wait to meet you! You are not even half way done baking in mommy's tummy, and you have us extremely excited. I have already bought you two outfits, and I know by the time you get here, I will have bought you so much stuff that your mommy will be complaining! But that's how it is supposed to be :)
Your daddy doesn't always show it, but he is excited too.
Once you get here, summer will almost be over, but I want to take pictures of you outside, so you are going to become acquainted with baby sun block very quickly :P
Please try and make mommy comfortable these next couple months.
Loveyou!
xoxo-Meghan


p.s. A better blog will be up late tonight/early tomorrow!

Luck.

I've realized over the past couple years that I am truly lucky for the outcomes of some situations in my life. As simple as winning the lottery, or as big as family going through medical procedures.

Today, I was extremely lucky. It was my first day photographing actual people. Actual babies. That move. Fast.
I watched two co-workers of mine, and they did great, but you could see the stress and the struggle. Then I was up, I was scared I was going to get a newly walking child, or worse, a cranky one. What do I see come in my Camera room? A 5 week old baby, who was born prematurely. Thank you God! He was amazingly cute, and very easy to shoot. Of course he dirtied his diaper three times in the course of his day with me. Other than being hungry, and wanting to eat his hands, we got some priceless pictures. I wish I could show them!

I had 2 more easy sittings, and that was my day. One little boy fell and cried, and I was heartbroken. First fall, in my Camera room.

I also realized today that I love:
*Weight Watchers frozen dinners.
*My boyfriend, so much :)
*My job, and come on, how many people truly love their job?
*Babies. I can't wait!
*The patience mothers have while they get their children photographed.
*Computers! I couldn't make it without them!

I did a little grocery shopping today because I needed stuff to take to work. I only got a few things, but here they are:
WW Yogurts: 2 points
100 Calorie Cheez-It Snack Mix: 3 points
Rice Cakes: I don't know the points, and I don't care, they're DELICIOUS!
Oatmeal Raisin Granola Bars: 2 points

I had quite a few points left when we were at the store, and the Reese's egg had been popping up everywhere, so finally I grabbed one.
I ate it.
Then I figured the points
. . .
FIVE. five. 5.
No matter how I write it out, it was not worth it. It was good. But not that good!

I ordered some charm bracelets, and charms. Both for me and my cousin, Ashley. I got them in the mail today, and absolutely love them! But the bracelets may be too frail to hold the charms. I will try and post pictures asap, but I am exhausted from today.The other two of my sittings were extremely active. Does anyone know of some fairly cheap sterling silver charm bracelets, or charms? I'm talking cheap. :) And NOT Pandora!

I have a new recipe to share with you guys this weekend! And it's a dessert...mmmm. I have to leave it at that, or I will need to wander downstairs and whip myself up something right now!

xoxo-Meghan

p.s. If you have any good photo ideas/poses for any age, with NO props, please send me a link in the comments or describe them! Thanks :)

Dollars & Pounds

So today was my weigh in day.
Are you ready?
I lost
. . .
5.2 pounds!
WOOOOHOOOOO!
I am officially down 10 pounds in 1 month, at 200. It's no where near my goal, BUT, it's ten pounds less on my body, so yes, today I am one happy camper.

For those of you who don't know me, I have never had a job. Nope. Not one. Ever. However, I have been babysitting since I was 12. So it's not like I don't have work ethic, and don't know the value of a dollar. Anyways, today I started my new first job ever! It's at a photography studio. I am going to be trained to be a photographer. For babies. Come on, really? This is my dream job! And good pay too ;) Tomorrow we learn how to take pictures, of each other. Ugh, I honestly hate having my picture taken.

Today was a boring day, but I did learn the child pornography laws, which I would have never guessed.
(Is it sad when learning child pornography laws is the second best part of my day?)
^I'm sure you;re wondering what the best part what was. And shockingly, it isn't that I lost 5.2 pounds, it's that I celebrated with Subway for lunch :) -nomnomnom- Subway is healthy, got some veggies, grains,meat, and dairy! Totally worth the points. It's more points than I usually use on lunch, but who cares!
It's d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s.

So everyone seems to like the name Parker Dean for my godson, I'll be sure to let you know when she decides the name :) Any ideas for a nursery? Keep in mind he will be sharing a room with a 3 year old.

Also, for my cysters out there, have you tried progesterone cream? I was wondering if you had any success/if it is worth the money.

I really wanted to share this cute video :)
How adorable is this?! I can't help but laugh every time he gets scared :)

Last but not least, I need black shirts for work! Cute ones! And of course more clothes of any kind aren't frowned upon :P But I can never find cute ones that fit, and are within budget. Know of any good websites?

xoxo-Meghan

btw, a small hot chocolate from dunkin' donuts is not worth the points. at all.

Last Minute..

Today has been a day of last minute choices, purchases, and tasks. Go figure.
-Filling out my tax forms for work.
-Buying new body wash. Which you MUST try. It smells delicious!
-Going out to eat for dinner. (Not a good WW choice, and now I'm feeling guilty.)
-Deciding not to exercise.

I weigh in tomorrow, and I have a bad feeling that it is not going to be a good outcome :(
Honestly, I need a good pasta recipe. And something involving potatoes. My 2 favorite foods I miss!

Tomorrow I start my new job at iSmile. As a photographer. Wow. As my Dad would have said, "Who would have thunk it!?".

Speaking of my Dad, I miss him terribly. For those of you who don't know me personally, my Dad died on May 8, 2003. He had Cardiomyopathy and no one knew. He died in his sleep, and felt no pain. Thank God <3 To this day I struggle with losing him. I'm afraid one day I am going to forget him. Of course, since I have pictures of him, I will always know what he looks like. But I fear I'll forget him. Sometimes I forget his voice, or his smell, and honestly it scares me to death. Have any of you lost a parent? How do you deal with it?

My boyfriend's Mom's birthday is on Sunday. I live with them, and she is like a mom to me. I love cleaning and cooking and having her come home to a clean house. I'm worried with my job things will change. But, I bought her a spice rack for her birthday, and I can't wait to give it to her. I bought her several other things too, some Pandora charms, Lemon cheesecake Lip Balm(Which I may or may not be keeping for myself :P ), and a wall vinyl for her bedroom. I also got the wall vinyl from etsy, but I don't feel like digging up the link right now. Call me lazy, but I'm sure I will show you a picture and link it once it is here :)

One last thing before I leave, my cousin and I have been talking about names for my Godson. We are just looking for some input.
Carter Dean
Parker Dean
Sawyer Dean
Leland Dean
Or do you have any name suggestions for a boy with the middle name Dean?
Dean is the grandpa's middle name, and they want to carry it down, so no choices there :P

Until tomorrow,
xoxo-Meghan

Okay I lied.
I wanted to tell you guys that I cut&colored my hair. Like it?

And this is Dustin, my boyfriend, who "wants me to come to bed and stop blogging".
Goodnight!

Down, Down, Down

I decided it was time I needed to start losing weight, get down to my ideal size.
Of course everyone is always saying that, no?
But this time I mean it. I started Weight Watchers(Points Plus) about 3 weeks ago. I've only lost 5 pounds, but I love it and I feel so many changes in my body, all or the better :)


I thought I would share my FAVORITE recipe, and a couple things I swear by!


Recipe, was from the AMAZING Andrea. If it weren't for her, I'd be done with WW by now :P


Drumroll Please....


Petite Lasagnas(Makes 12, Points+:5)

• 12 oz raw ground turkey
• ¼ tsp salt, divided
• ¼ tsp pepper
• 14.5 oz can crushed tomatoes, or tomato sauce
• 2 cloves garlic, minced
• 3 tsp dried oregano, divided
• ½ tsp dried basil
• 1 ½ cups part skim ricotta cheese
• 24 small square wonton wrappers (the kind near the tofu in the refrigerated section of the produce dept)
• 1 1/2 cups shredded mozzarella cheese
• Preheat oven to 375ºF. Heat a large skillet over medium heat. Add the turkey, salt, and pepper. Crumble the meat and saute the mixture for about 10 minutes, or until the turkey is cooked through. Add the garlic and stir constantly for 30 seconds.
• Add the crushed tomatoes and 2 tsp of oregano. Bring the pan to a gentle boil. Reduce the heat to low and simmer for 10 minutes. Remove from heat and set aside.
• In a large bowl, combine the ricotta, a pinch of salt and pepper, the remaining teaspoon of oregano, and the basil. Stir to mix well. Set aside.
• Coat a 12-cup muffin tin with nonstick cooking spray. Place 1 wonton wrapper into each of the 12 cups, pressing firmly in the bottom of the cup and up the sides.
• Using half of the ricotta mixture, divide it among the 12 muffin cups. Next, using half of the turkey tomato sauce, spoon it evenly over each of the ricotta filled cups. Sprinkle with 2 tsp of mozzarella.
• Gently press another wonton wrapper on top of the mozzarella layer.
• Repeat the process by distributing the remaining ricotta, then the remaining tomato sauce, and finally the rest of the shredded mozzarella.
• Bake for 10 minutes, or until the cheese has melted.
• Enjoy! :)

Please, I BEG of you, go to Andrea's blog and look at her pictures. Mine honestly don't do this justice! The only thing I changed in the recipe, was I went a little easy on the ricotta cheese, only because I don't particularly like it.

WARNING: If you go to her blog, and you are hungry, be prepared to raid your cupboards or run to the store!

:D

Okay, Okay, forget the lasagnas(not forever! just long enough to listen to my rambling :P)

My WW tips,

Buy lite bread, 2 pieces=1point

Spray butter=free

Make fruit salads so fruit doesn't get old if you're not a fruit eater.

Splenda=free

Egg beaters & Turkey bacon are a PERFECT combination(&you could always throw in some lite bread!)

For real now, No more food talk. It's late and I used all my points today.

It's offical, I am going to have a godson!

I am extremely excited and cannot wait to hold him and see many more ultrasound pictures of him.

I'll have to ask his mommy if I can post pictures on here of him.

Speaking of his mommy, she refuses to show off her baby belly! I absolutely adore big 'ol pregnant bellies! I promise you at some point her belly WILL be on this page ;)

(she's totally reading this with a huge grin muttering to herself how pigs will be flyin' before this happens!)

Now with this random post out of the way,

I shall head of to bed.

xoxo-Meghan

Who am I?

My name is Meghan. I am 18. Young, ordinary, and slightly naive. I live 600 miles away from my home, my friends and my family. But I'm not the girl that you may think I am. I've lived through more than I ever should have. And I've made more stupid mistakes than I ever wanted.

But people mess up, always. No one is perfect, nor do I ever expect to be.

I'm writing this blog as a way to free my mind, make friends, and help myself.
Don't like what I write? Don't read it.
Going through the same thing? Tell me.
I'm not just here for me; I am here for you too.
I'm tired of being alone in my thoughts, and this is the safest way I could think to let them out.

Crazy, how "the safest way" I can let my feelings out is by sharing things with the internet. The whole world can share in my happiness, sadness, mistakes, and miracles. But this is what I want. I want to share this. I want to be a part of your life. Even if you only spend 5 minutes a day reading my blog.

xoxo-Meghan