I've always wondered if someone would ever have THAT much of an interest in me,
to make a missed connections ad on craigslist.
Not that I've ever even looked at them,
but I think I'd feel pretty dang special.
Years ago I was dating this guy,
he was amazing.
I loved him more than I thought possible.
But I messed things up.
Even though I'm not proud of it,
or particularly happy.
I wouldn't have Dustin or my angel baby had it not happened.
Sometimes I still miss him.
We had a rough breakup.
The day we broke up,
he deleted me from his life.
I haven't heard from him again.
It's been two and a half years.
I still creep his facebook sometimes.
I still have his number.
But I don't try.
Because I am happy where I am.
But if for some reason he sees this,
I just wanted him to know I'm sorry.
I messed up, and I know it.
And sometimes it still breaks my heart to know I hurt him.
But I love my life now.
And it just so happens that he isn't a part of it.
The truth hurts.
I'm sorry CRS.
From the bottom of my heart.