Missed Connection

I've always wondered if someone would ever have THAT much of an interest in me, 

to make a missed connections ad on craigslist.

Not that I've ever even looked at them,

but I think I'd feel pretty dang special.

Wouldn't you?

Years ago I was dating this guy,

he was amazing.

I loved him more than I thought possible.

But I messed things up.

Even though I'm not proud of it,

or particularly happy.

I wouldn't have Dustin or my angel baby had it not happened.

Sometimes I still miss him.

We had a rough breakup.

The day we broke up, 

he deleted me from his life.

I haven't heard from him again.

It's been two and a half years.

I still creep his facebook sometimes.

I still have his number.

But I don't try.

Because I am happy where I am.

But if for some reason he sees this,

I just wanted him to know I'm sorry.

I messed up, and I know it.

And sometimes it still breaks my heart to know I hurt him.

But I love my life now.

And it just so happens that he isn't a part of it.

The truth hurts.

I'm sorry CRS.

From the bottom of my heart.