Have you ever hit rock bottom?

I most certainly have. 

I have made so many mistakes in life, and I'm only 20.

I wouldn't go back and change any though. 

No regrets.

My senior year in High School I got wrapped up in a world I never thought possible.

I did stupid things, so many stupid things.

Horrible, harmful things. 

I hit rock bottom.

It just hit me, I woke up one morning wondering what the point of waking up was?

Why should I go to school?

I have no friends left.

Why should I leave my room?

My family has no love for me.

Why should I talk to my boyfriend?

Surely he doesn't love me.

The whole world was resting on my shoulders and not on person cared.

On the happiest night I had in what seemed like years,

I decided it was time.

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It just so happened I was with a group of friends and we were out of town.

I took a bunch of pills.

I continued ice skating the night away.

I was finally free, that huge weight on my shoulders?

Gone.

I had an amazing night.

I remember getting in the car.

Middle of the backseat. Safe and Snug.

I remember eating lemonheads.

But where did they come from?

I remember listening to music.

My heart was racing.

I remember my friends yelling at me.

I couldn't sit up.

I remember the look of panic on her face.

Why can't I stop laughing?

I remember the anger and hurt in her eyes.

I couldn't say I love you.

I woke up the next morning in my living room.

Glasses no where to be found ( I'm nearly blind people!)

I went in my room panicking, found my boyfriend passed out on the couch.

I begged him to tell me what was going on.

Where am I? What happened? How did I get home?

He had no answers.

How did he have no answers?

My room was a mess...

food everywhere,

clothes everywhere.

What happened last night?

I called my best friend.

She was furious.

She was sad.

She was scared.

She told me my boyfriend carried me inside.

Asked me what I took...I had no idea!

Filled in the pieces as best as she could.

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I went to a Psychiatric Facility 2 days later.

I stayed for a week.

My life changed for the better.

I am so thankful I have a best friend who will always stand by my side,

even when I do so many wrongs.

I'm thankful for a family who didn't want to see me go, but knew I needed help they could no longer give me.

I'm thankful for said boyfriend taking that as his hint to leave, I'm who I am because you ruined me.

But I don't regret you.

I don't regret my choices.

I don't regret that night.

I have not done any drugs, drank, self mutilated, 

thought about suicide, or given up hope since that night.

I am so strong.

I will always be there for you.

I can get through 

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