Your light will shine when all else fades

I know my blogs are few and far between, but I'm working on it!

Unlike my last post, this one is a drastic change! Everything seems to be going so well in my life right now, I am cautiously waiting for the next thing to go wrong. And with things this perfect, it's gotta be something big...right? :/

I.Love.College. I truly do. So yeah, maybe I am that dorky kid who sits in the back of class taking notes all day. And I just might be the girl who has ZERO friends. And I may hate my philosophy class with everything in me. BUT, I love college :)

I love my education classes. I love that tomorrow I start my field placement. aka, I start going into a school with a teacher, helping, doing lessons, etc. I love knowing I am going to start making a difference in children's lives already! This is so much more than I ever anticipated my freshman year. One neat thing is my niece is in my class tomorrow and possibly my half-sister. I'm not 100% how I feel about that second part. Actually, I guess I shouldn't dwell on it. I mean, she probably doesn't remember me after all these years anyways. But how awesome to see her and her growth right before me :) I will be sure to post ASAP!

Dustin came back from Connecticut...see the distance thing doesn't last long with us ;)

As many of you may know, I am going to a very strict Christian College. I, to this day, am not sure whether or not I believe in God. We are required to attend Chapel three times a week. I thought I was going to hatehatehate going to Chapel, but I genuinely enjoy it. (Although my boyfriend does not. When I like a song, it means everyone around me better be prepared to hate it in a day or so. I keep coming home with all these worship songs, and he is going crazy!! :P) So on that note, I shall go to bed and leave you with this amazing song to listen to and think about :)


xoxo
Meghan<3

College..best four years, or no?

WARNING: THIS POST MAY CONTAIN LOTS OF COMPLAINING!

So with that said, my college experience this far:horrible!
I know as an off-campus student I can't really judge my year yet since classes have yet to start. But I do. I'm that person :P

First big event on campus was for all freshman to go to a Clipper's game. Did I get the memo? Nope. No email, nothing in the mail. No posts online. But yet it was for everyone. So before classes even start I feel like an outcast.

I had decided this past week, I was going to shine this year. Good grades, tons of friends, go to all campus events even if I don't feel like it. I didn't wanna do anything to prevent myself from having a good college life. Now I'm just not sure anymore. I don't have friends. I'm too afraid to go to events alone. Most things are for 2 or 4 people. So of course roomies, where does that put me?

I think this is enough complaining and rambling. I promise not to have another post like this! It was just good to vent!

Slightly bummed,
Meghan

Secrets

Leave of Absence

I have been gone for MONTHS, literally.
For some reason, no matter how much I wanted to blog, I just didn't. I have missed it a lot :)

I'm having a hard time in life right now. And although I do not want a pity party on myself, I think blogging will help me deal with this.

My boyfriend and I moved from Connecticut to Ohio on June first. Last Wednesday he moved back. Alone. I would have done anything to go with him, but I refuse to put school off another year, nor does he want me to. I miss him terribly, it hasn't even been a week, but I am miserable without him by my side.

On top of all that, my godson (mentioned in several previous posts) died last week. I am staying with his mom right now, she is my "cousin" and we have always been very close. We're both taking this very hard, her obviously more so. He was overdue by a couple days and the cord wrapped around his neck. I do not want to answer questions about it. I am not sharing anymore details other than that. I will always love him, and miss him. But God has a crazy way of making things work out in the end. So I'm hoping he will in this case.

I miss everyone out there in blog land :P But I am going to head to bed and give that boyfriend of mine a call.

<3 Meghan